27 Okt 2013

Paranoia And Phobia

Oktober 27, 2013 0 Comments

Here, I bring to you the definition of paranoid and phobia based one the Oxford dictionary.

Paranoid - Unreasonably or obsessively anxious, suspicious or mistrustful.

Phobia - An extreme or irrational fear.

Well, let me count, I think this paranoia and phobia things have been going around meddling with my head for quite some time already. Hmm. I think maybe around 2 to 3 months. It started since I read about the news regarding a school teacher who was shot to death on his way to school. To add up the essence and spice up the flavor, we've been expose to the world of gangsterism in Malaysia. There are a long lists of "Geng" that have been exposed by our police. And along with that, more and more people has lost their life, shot to death, stab by sharp objects subsequently lead to death and thousand of other cruel ways that we could hardly imagine that kind of things could actually happen in real life.

People has lost their humanity? Or the surrounding and environment that force people to give up on humanity? Truly said, I'm scared. Scared of how, why, and what we would eventually turn up to be. One day.

Yesterday, again, Malaysian were shocked by the news where a female bank worker got shot to death in a robbery committed by the security guard who work on that day. Isn't the job of a security guard @ pengawal keselamatan is to guard the security of people and the workplace? Or am I wrong on the definition of a security guard? I'm sad. And, I'm scared. May Allah rest her soul in peace and give the patience to her family member to get through this. Another test from Allah.

And not only that, a case where a man ran amok and end up stabbing two people to death. Oh Allah! 

And for the past few months, I've been hunting by this feeling of fear and insecurity. I know that everything is already written up there, your life, your fate, your destiny. And people say "malang tak berbau". But still, that thought always rushing in my mind and meddling with my feeling.

I got really scared to drive, so I always end up dragging my brothers along. And I always avoid the traffic light, but still how on earth you can avoid that, right? So I try not to stop near the bikes. I always keep a watch on all the people riding the bikes, well, afraid something will happen I guess. I try not to withdraw money by going to the bank and perform my transaction mostly through online banking. And I'm way too scared if my car's fuel panel start to blink indicating it needs to drink. Petrol station is another place where crime always happen. And yeah, 7 eleven too. So I always go to a petrol station when it is flooded with people.

Every people that are caught within my sight, who appears suspicious, something something, always rises the fear in me. I got really scared of them and always keeping a look if they might take out something from their pocket or bag.

Urgh! This paranoia tires me out. I hate why I must feel this way. Scared. Afraid. Fear of people and surrounding. I've always been that type of girl who easily get over worried. And in the end, that feeling actually sucks up my positive energy and I get tired at the end of the day. I mean, mentally tired. Hmm.

Today will be a long day. I need rest!!! Haha. Okay. Till here then people. Do take care. Assalamualaikum.

14 Okt 2013


Oktober 14, 2013 0 Comments

Agak-agaknya beginikah pemikiran gadis-gadis yang meminati drama Korea? Amboi! For that kind of world like in the drama, sampai berdoa supaya ianya akan terjadi dalam realiti. Haha. Bunyinya macam so materialistic dan high taste? Ayte?


Pernah tak dengar orang sebut, "While some girls are busy looking for a rich husband, I'm busy trying to be rich before becoming a wife." Well, I guess that explain it all. Bukanlah nak jadi kaya raya macam seorang billionaire, gamaknya tak kahwin kot. Cuma biarlah orang kata financially stable. Sebab bagi aku, satu benda kena pegang, we never know what the future brings, so better be prepared. ^^


Kalau aku rasa So Ji Sub kacak, ada orang mungkin tak setuju. Ada orang lain kata Lee Min Ho kacak, bagi aku biasa saja, tak berkenan sangat. Jadi benda alah kacak dan cantik, subjektif. Lain orang lain matanya. Lain mata lain pandangannya. Asal bila kita tatap hari-hari tak ada rasa menyampah okay sangat dah. Rasa boleh dipandang, boleh ditenung, boleh ditatap, mata sejuk memandang, itu semua lain untuk setiap orang.

Jadinya, daripada duduk pray untuk benda alah rich, hot and handsome, baik praying for our health, our rezeki, our success in life and as well as akhirat. Kalau nak berangan-angan ke, dreaming ke, itu okay. Haha.

Okay, jom sambung tengok The Heirs. Kekeke. Have a great weekdays. Selamat berpuasa bagi yang berpuasa pada hari ini. Salam Eidul Adha. Jaga diri semua. Assalamualaikum.

7 Okt 2013

Fin! Kkeo Jyeo!

Oktober 07, 2013 1 Comments

First and foremost, I need to state it here in my post, that all the pictures EXCEPT the last one, are not mine. So, credit goes to the original uploader, I just borrowed it through Uncle Google. Thank you to the owner of this pictures. I love all of them. ^^

It has been quite some time since I posted something in this blog. And it's the usual reasons and excuses, "BUSY" "LOSING THE MOOD" and etc. Haha.

My recent favourite K-Drama, The Master's Sun has come to an end last week. A 9 weeks journey full of ups and downs, sweet and sour, some draggy moments here and there, but luckily still able to finish it and not leaving it half way in the middle. 

The show started out great. Seriously it is something that is really worth watching even for those who are not a fan of K-Drama, you will like this one. The story line is unique, fresh, and I haven't watch dramas with this kind of feeling like I bear when I watch The Master's Sun.

But then at some point in the middle, I think after episode 13, it started to feel draggy, like the writer just purposely putting in unnecessary scenes just because they wanted to make 1 episode extension. But it is still watchable. Thanks to the macho oppa Joo Joong Won and drama queen Unnie, Tae Gong Shil. Our couple really deserves an award in this year end award show. Especially Tae Gong Shil, she is just great!! A+ actress I can say. ^^

And of course, a romantic comedy usually end up with a happy ending. Ouh! When I think about it, those kisses at the end of the drama, it's really fishy. It feels like the kiss is not between Joo Joong Won and Tae Gong Shil, but between So Ji Sub and Gong Hyo Jin!! Lol! Sorry for my wild imagination.

And because it has ended, I'm officially "NOT BUSY" anymore. Haha. Got another 2 weeks for me to start back my routine. And I hope this time it gonna turns out good. Better than before. ^^

And because I love the chemistry between both main actor and actress, and because my feeling will always remain as a secret and one sided feeling, so I act like a child (adik aku kata aku syok sendiri), and I change the image pictures for me and for that someone who always make me smile. So that it looks like, hey, Joo Joong Won and Tae Gong Shil!! Gosh! I'm really a muka tak tahu malu person. Haha. It's okay. Just this one time. Please! 

Please understand the heart of a girl with one sided feeling. Haha. Before it goes "Kkeo Jyeo!" Who would have thought that this is the act of a 26 years old woman. She really acts like 16. Huh.

Next is The Heirs a.k.a The Inheritors. Will it be as good as The Master's Sun? Just wait and see. Take care people. Assalamualaikum.